I had a list last year and it’s shocking how close some of these “impossible things happened” (read my wishlist for 2018 here to compare: 8 spiritual lessons maalia is working on for 2018
1 I did get a magical teacher, ate jammi took me as her apprentice. I’ve also enrolled and have been guided by amara strand and it’s been paradigm shifting. I’ve learned tarot and counseling and a truckload of self-awareness.
2 I did get spiritual classmates, I have ate Jenni and we hang out and have tea in makati.
2.5 I DIDN’T ASK FOR THIS BUT I HAVE STUDENTS NOW. I HAVE LITERAL MAGICKAL CHILDREN WHO I GUIDE IN THE WAYS OF UNDERSTANDING WEIRD PSYCHIC EXPERIENCES
3 I have activated my manipura chakra… long story short:
Shamanic journey with ate jammi > I’ve repositioned the energy vortex on my bed to fall on my belly > the mantra “all that I am is coming back to myself”. Have all collectively made my tan tien real and alive as hell
4 I fell in love. He didn’t love me back, which was a huge lesson but oh boy that was damn strange and crazy. Karmic really.
5 Money: I have had international and local energy clients!!! WHICH IS WILD, because I don’t even try too hard to market but I actually have found that I’m really good at this. And heck< I’m really helpful.
Also I’ve had paid DANCE and ART gigs, which is just mind blowing to me. Sorry I come from a family/society that doesn’t expect this at all and being paid to teach partner dance or even act in the streets is some of the most fun I’ve had this year. And like the literal visceral breathing experience of me being wrong about how I can attract money in my life. I’ve literally had side gigs fall in my lap which have done so well..
6 Middle way: I think I’ve found it, sort of. When I said before I tend to do too much woo woo spirituality that was a huge understatement. I had escapist tendencies, naive impulsive not thought-out tendencies, things that were natural to anyone who was experiencing new things. Excitable little darling.
I’m much more grounded now, patient. Also happier?? But not the happy top of the roller coaster kind of happy but base line happiness and gratitude is much higher. I’m in much more command of my energies and more conscious of what I create. In the what I’m deciding to do today in my to do list scale and the I am a supraconcsiousness handling multiple timelines scale. Both.
Responsibility too. It’s addressed another item which is –
7 Not needing to know.
That was a lot of anxiety talking. Also a lot of unclarity! Because there was a lot of work to do and reprogram but I wasn’t conscious of it. So I just said – go with the flow. NO HONEY. YOU didn’t know where ou were, what you wanted, what you’re underlying beliefs were!! THAT’S WHY, I’m growing into that. Quite painfully, but it’s satisfying, more responsibility to stick to your truths but very Real.
8 Channeling while writing: Still working on that.
BONUS: I can read the energies of situations now though. Like choosing option A or B, I don’t need tarot cards I already viscerally know what feels worse for me..
BONUS2: PATIENCE. I’VE LEARNED THAT I NEED TO LEARN PATIENCE.
Will I write another one for 2019?
I DON’T KNOW. Time is so malleable, also intentions CAN be very tricky in how they’re phrased. I do have plans, but they’re not at all magickal sounding. Just magickal in a sense that my persona never thought I’d be good at that kind of stuff.
Like stunts for dance choreography and kettlebells you know? Not exactly the right fit for my blog but HUGE growth nonetheless. I’ll post about it when I’ve done it, but ’til then.